martian hiatus

martian hiatus

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  • shit is the etymology of it

    “shit”, no one ever tells you, is the obscured etymology of “it”, formed by apheresis (or telling the first two letters to “shhh!”), the meaning of “it” accordingly being the demonstrative pronominal “that gross stuff”, i.e. everything (so initially “i won’t touch it”, for “i won’t touch that shit”, later extended to “it was not raining, it was a fine day” for “that shit was not raining, that shit was a fine day”, with a trace of this “that shit” remaining in the exclamation “that’s it!”), and “it”, no one ever tells you, is the obscured etymology of (the) “id”, which accordingly means “that shit deep inside the self”, and “id”, no one ever tells you, is the obscured etymology of “i”, formed by apocope (compare german “ei”, “egg”, a back formation from “eis”, “ice cream”), which accordingly means “the self with that shit deep inside itself”, yet note that this gloss sticks or affixes to the “self” the word “it”, which as we have seen means “shit” (qua everything), such that more properly it reads “the self with that shit deep inside shitself”, which amounts to a clear if tacit acknowledgement of the intimacy between shit, it, the id and the i that we have been demonstrating, and furthermore indicates the quite beautiful recursive nature of the self or i, forever wedded to the “it” and so to the “shit” that it and also everything else is, such that the dualism of subject–object or in this case i–shit is surpassed and revealed to be no more than the stunted construct of a lesser stage of consciousness: the self is ultimately no more than an infinite spiralling cycle of shit knowing shitself as shit and knowing that it (i.e. shit, or i, i.e. it, i.e. shit) is shit through its (i.e. shit’s) own knowing of shitself as shit. finally, a note on our regrettably unavoidable use of a jargon: “i.e.” is an abbreviation for “id est”, or, “shit is what there is”, which encapsulates the stage beyond the sublation of the subject–object or i–shit dualism as neat as a well-formed stool.

  • sorry i missed you

    so sorry i missed your visit, i was out wrecking. just got home. fuck it was exhausting. it took ages this time, wrecking all of the lot of the heaped-up flob and blof and gloob. it was so unwrecked, so far from being wrecked, i cannot tell you how far from being wrecked it was, how far from wrecking it we felt, we couldnt believe we wd end up wrecking it all. when we started out we couldnt see the light at the end of the tunnel, we thought it would remain unwrecked, at least a bit of it would, and if we left that one bit, it would eventually spread like an infestation and with time the whole thing would go back to being entirely unwrecked. its so hard to convey that imposing utter unwreckeness that unwrecked things exude when they stand defiantly before you. the unwreckedness can even come to feel like unwreckableness at times, your mind can play tricks on you like that. we had to wreck in stages, we couldnt just wreck all at once, it was far, far too much wrecking for that, we had to wreck bit by bit, taking care, being really vigilant, patient, going about it really systematically, avoiding reckless and hybristic shortcuts, taking regular breaks, following all the occupational health and safety regulations wed once been taught and taught to scorn. seen from space, it doesnt look like it would take that much effort, doesnt look like that much ground to cover, but when youre down there in the livid thick of it, it just feels like a vast, even infinite expanse of pigheaded unwreckability that no one could ever wreck. its funny, you know, if youdve told me how much effort wrecking it all would take at the beginning, i wouldnt have even started. starting out you dont realize, but perhaps its for the best as thats also why you dive in, and once youve dived in you just have to keep going, no matter how grim things get, as you know starting over would be worse. and step by step, with a lot of hard honest god-honoring toil on this really-not-that-wrecked-yet earth you gradually make some humble progress, you gradually get there. you do finally make it, and i have to say, i need you to hear this, its just frigging br-eath-tak-ing when you can step back, and look back over what youve achieved, and take stock, and see how you have quietly and simply, through nothing but the application of a few sober, stripped-back principles of cooperation and good old honest hard work, wrecked absolutely every-fucking-thing.

  • crumbling

    business (man) just needs to crumble away just a little more, just a little more, thats it, keep crumbling, youre doing great, really, just a little more, little more… hold on to your papers, or drop them if you like, its ok, both are ok, drop them and hold on to them but not in the sense of picking them up, you are ok just as you are, crumbling, crumbling, didnt you ever wonder how chalk felt?, on blackboard or cliff, on or off, crumbling, staying there, happy or sad, just by crumbling, crumbling down, crumbling up or sideways too maybe, thats ok, any kind of crumblings allowed, crumble out of the boundaries of whats allowed, crumbling out of the boundaries of what is allowed is allowed, crumble out of the suit youre wearing, out of the meaning of allowed, out of the meaning of a suit, out of the word suit, crumble out of suiting anything, crumble out of anything suiting, dont fit, crumble out of fitting, crumble out of a good fit, crumble out of having a fit, but dont strain too much about doing it!, youre crumbling after all, so maybe think about also crumbling into having a fit, dont just storm up there and try to barge into having one, thats not crumbling!, c-rum-ble into it, into having it, into the having of it, into the doing of the having of it, how does it feel to crumble into having a fit, be aware of it as it is happening to you, but its not just happening to you, youre doing it too, youre doing the crumbling and also the having and also the having a fit and also the fitting and fitting into the fit you are having and the combination of all those things too! whoa!, youre like the audience member that the creator schooled in bleached-white californian art deigned to grant some agency to in their egocentric self-erasure!, look out! think quick, you crumble good for the creator, now, yhear?, but is it you?, are you fitting, are you fitting in? do you fit in here crumbling into having a fit in a suit that doesnt fit but that you have a fit in?, is the “you” a construct?, is the suit, is its good fit?, be mindful of how it is to crumble into the having of a fit, crumbling proves that you are a form, and why just stop at one, crumble into a few fits, i mean theyre there for the taking, no one else is going to have them, if you dont crumble into them theyre just gonna end up on the metaphysical psychiatric slagheap, slip into a few, slip through a few, think of all the fits that people have refused to crumble into!, spare a thought for all the un-had fits, the fits people thought they were too good to have, the fits people looked down their noses at, or turned their noses up at, depending on their nose–contempt policy, because they werent beverley-hills-wellness-podcast enough, countless must be the fits that have never had a chance to be had, that have been left on the long drear shelves of the megamarket of non-being, that have never been given a chance to manifest, to bud and blossom, to strut their stuff, to groove, to show the world what they can really do with a body, like waves denied ocean they are, you owe it to their memory to crumble into the slipping into the fits that you can while you can, the fits that can still be had, the fits that are there to be had, that have to be had, you have to have this fit, these fits are what youre fated for, try them on while theres still time, slip crumbling into them, have as many fits as you can!, see how they fit, how they are a good fit, say to yourself yes this is a really cracking top-notch fit to have, and i get to have it!, we are a perfect match this fit and i, but so is this completely other fit!, and i get to have it as well!, and you know the fits you are having are a good fit because you are a business (man) who does the sums and who has always kept fit so as to have a good body that fits the sizes used by the fit-making companies (which you dont work for but thats the magic of exchange) to a T. hold to your elegance, keep your pose, your poise, as you crumble to dust, to poisonous, lead-filled dust,

  • benefits

    Benefits:

    • Aromatic
    • Spirit lifting
    • Pieces of mind
    • Balance
    • Focus

  • arson

    One way to keep warm this winter would be to burn every TotalEnergies office and piece of infrastructure down to the ground.

    There are so many things we need to burn down to the ground. We have so much hard arson ahead of us.

    Ashes don’t just grow on trees. You have to have a good arson ethic. You have to be willing to put in a lot of arson. You have to do a lot of hard arson.

    Success in business requires training and discipline and hard arson.

    Good things come to those who arson their arses off and never give up. You have to learn the value of hard arson. Success has nothing to do with talent, and everything to do with lots of hard arson.

    You can’t worry about the arsons that you can’t do. Focus on the arsons that you can do.

    Everyone is only capable of so much arson. But everyone has their little bit of arson to contribute.

    All roads that lead to success have to pass through the hard arson boulevard at some point.

    If at first you don’t succeed, arson, arson again.

    Without arson nothing prospers. – Sophocles

    Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do arson. – Leonardo da Vinci

    We must believe that we are gifted for something, and that this thing, at whatever cost, must be arson. – Marie Curie

    Be the arson you want to see in the world. – Gandhi

    Eighty percent of success is showing up with the jerry can and the cigarette lighter in your hands. – Woody Allen

    Arsoning hard and arsoning smart sometimes can be two different things. – Some programmer bro

    Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our arson, our possibilities become limitless. – Jamie Paolinetti

    The only way to do great arson is to love what you do. – Steve Jobs

    A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and goes to bed at night and in between does what arson he wants to do. – Bob Dylan

    The question isn’t who is going to let me; it’s who is going to stop me doing arson. – Ayn Rand

    The best time to do arson was 20 years ago, the second best time is today. – Chinese proverb

    Accept responsibility for your life. Know that it is your arson that will get you where you want to go, no one else’s. – Les Brown

    It’s not the years in your life that count. It’s the life in your arson. – Abraham Lincoln

    Either write something worth reading or do some arson worth writing about. – Benjamin Franklin

    We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the arson. – Oscar Wilde

    Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try arson again tomorrow. – Mary Anne Radmacher

    Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift of arson, which is why we call it the present. – Bill Keane

    Do what arson you can, with what you have, where you are. – Theodore Roosevelt

    Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising to do arson every time we fall. – Confucius

    And once the arson is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure whether the arson is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the arson, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this arson’s all about. – Haruki Murakami

    Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue doing arson that counts. – Winston Churchill

    And, when you want to do some arson, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. – Paulo Coelho

    Make a pact with yourself today to not be defined by your past. Sometimes the greatest thing to come out of all your arson isn’t what you get for it, but what you become for it. Shake things up today! – Steve Maraboli

    I’m a greater believer in luck, and I find the more arson I do the more I have of it. – Thomas Jefferson

    Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on doing arson when there seemed to be no hope at all. – Dale Carnegie

    Don’t wish it were easier. Wish your arson were better. – Jim Rohn

    Determine never to be idle. No person will have occasion to complain of the want of time, who never loses any. It is wonderful how much may be done, if we are always doing arson. – Thomas Jefferson

    Tough times never last, but arson does. – Robert H. Schuller

    The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little extra arson. – Jimmy Johnson

    Many who are self-taught in arson far excel the doctors, masters, and bachelors of the most renowned universities. – Ludwig von Mises

    Sometimes there’s not a better way. Sometimes there’s only arson. – Mary E. Pearson

    It doesn’t matter how great your shoes are if you don’t accomplish any arson in them. – Martina Boone

    Arson beats talent when talent doesn’t do arson. – Some basketball coach

    If your teacher, coach, or mentor believes you can do some arson, you’re more likely to do it. – Gwen Moran

    People who say the arson cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it. – George Bernard Shaw

    There are no great people in this world, only great challenges which ordinary people rise to meet with arson. – William Frederick Halsey, Jr.

    I do not know anyone who has got to the top without arson. That is the recipe. It will not always get you to the top, but should get you pretty near. – Margaret Thatcher

    I am who I am today because of the arson I did yesterday. – Eleanor Roosevelt

    Talent is cheaper than table salt. What separates the talented individual from the successful one is a lot of arson. – Stephen King

    Arson spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don’t turn up at all. – Sam Ewing

    You can’t get there by bus, only by arson and risk and by not quite knowing what you’re doing. What you’ll discover will be wonderful. What you’ll discover will be yourself. – Alan Alda

    We must love doing arson or die. – W. H. Auden

    We must love one another or do arson. – W. H. Auden

    We must love one another and do arson. – W. H. Auden

    We must love doing arson or do arson. – W. H. Auden

  • from sectioned

    XVIII: neg back

    i will not take care, i will not be careful, i will not watch out, i will not make sure i have all my belongings with me before i exiting the train blow them the fuck up see if i care, i do not care, i will not produce my documents upon request, i will not do not leave your baggage unattended, i will leave it absolutely unattended, i will not attend it nor attend to it, i will not please note, i will not your attention please, i will not dear customers, i will not express myself, i will not put my backpack in the cloakroom–its for cloaks, i will not no standing, i will stand, i will not give way, i will not adapt my facial expression to make it seem like im the person depicted on my photo id, i will not coincide with that, i will not be who i say i am, i will not keep calm, i will not move along, i will not make way for the traffic, i will not cease and desist, i will not proceed to the platform, i will not open wide, i will not say cheese, i will not please be seated, i will not please do not feed the animals, i will not hold on tight while the vehicle is in motion, i will not have a pleasant trip, i will not all change this is the last stop, i will not choose from your wide selection of refreshments, i will not hold my position, i will not rate your service today, i will not demand to speak to the manager, i will not was this page helpful, i will not manage my booking, i will not manage, i will not your feedback is important to us, i will not find out more, i will not buy low sell high, i will not consider it done, i will not fire door do not obstruct, i will not bide my time, i will not in case of an emergency do not descend onto the tracks, i will not be my best, i will not do my best, i will not have a nice day, i will not relax, i will not do so at my own risk, i will not step right up, i will not be amazed, i will not gaze in awe as, i will not be the person i want to be, i will not be myself, i will not “just” be, i am not worth it, i will not open my mind, i will not believe in myself, i will not see the light, i will not make myself known, i will not consider the issue from your perspective, i will not take each day as it comes, i will not take it one step at a time, i will not speak frankly, i will not download the app, i will not connect to our wifi, i will not visit our website, i will not follow us on blah, i will not click here, i will not scan you, i will not get involved, i will not direct my enquiries, i will not get off my high horse i will get high with my high horse, i will not please remember, i will not use by 23.10.2022, i will not i do remind you that youre under oath, i will not take advantage of your offer, i will not please try again later, i will not hark! the herald angels sing, i will not travel smart, i will not strike a light!, i will not fuck my dog in a bushfire, i will not think brighter, i will not put litter in its place, i will not dispose of thoughtfully, i will not stand by, i will not stand clear of the doors, i will not watch my step, i will not beware of the dog, i will not mind the gap, i am the gap, i will not lend you my ears, i will not quiet please, i will not break glass in an emergency, i will not speak up, i will not open up, i will not the future is in our hands, i will not make the most of it, i will not let us bow our heads, i will not let us pray, i will not read the book the only book the book of god, i will not press 1, i will not please hold the line, i will not your call is important to us, i will not spare a thought, i will not keep left or keep right, i will not do not touch the wires risk of death, i will not no parking, i will not staff only, i will not please calm down, i do not got this, i will not stop complaining, i will not go easy, i will not give you a break, i will not put the weapon down, i will not cover myself, i will not think of the children, i will not give an account of myself or any other, i will not blare my concocted factitious explanation of my innocence and justification of my merely being in the doing of my doing till the fucking shitfuck cops rocked up, i will not do it my way, i will not please print your name in capital letters, i will not use only black or blue ink, i will not complete this important step, i will not thankyou for joining us, i will not stay tuned, i will not please stand back, i will not no entry, i will not wrong way go back, i will not don’t try this at home, i will not get a whole lot more out of life, i will not giving you more time to do what you need to do to be your best, i will not find the strength to carry on, i will not give generously, i will not hear you out, i will not come to my senses, i will not think global, i will not act local, i will not think, i will not act, i will not think before i act, i will not act my age, i will not please leave this page blank, i will not caution hot contents, i will not follow my instinct, i will not earn my keep, i will not take action, i will give action, i do not know what you mean, i will not hold up a minute, i do not read you, i will not be reasonable, i do not have to understand, i will not sit down at the negotiating table, i will not hands up, i will not fancy that, i will not breathe normally, i will not please stand behind the yellow line, i will not stay behind the black or white line, i will not listen to the announcements, i will not enjoy, i will never enjoy, i will not do not cross, i will not do not piss in this pissing spot do not take drugs here on the drugs-taking corner do not buy drugs here on the drugs-buying corner, fuck you i will not please do not touch, i will never ever ever please do not touch do not climb here do not sit on this surface because art is more important than human bodies even tho all art is please do touch wont you dare touch me please do i so awfully want to slime with you endlessly until the state as such melts into the great dismal swamp as such, you and me honey, you sexy motherfucker of a beholder, you and me in the hot slurry of what used to be the state, mmmmmmmmmmmh yeah, splash it all over me, touch me in all the spots i want to be touched in, i will touch, i will cry, i will move, i will look back, i will think too much, i will be taking questions, i will speak, i will give up, i will back down, i will share my secret code, i will walk, i will cross, i will open, i will enter, i will worry about it, i will disturb, i will trespass, i will dare do that, i will not please do not, i do not please do not, i only ever please do, i only ever by all means, i do, i do do and i dont mind if i do, i do in order to not mind that i do, if i do, when i do, what i do, how i do, with whom and with what i do, i do to love that i do, if i do, when i do, what i do, how i do, with whom and with what i do, i do to love that i love that i do, i do to love that i do and love to do what i do and love to love that i do, and i only love that i do, if i do, when i do, what i do, how i do, with whom and with what i do because it is no different to what you do, if you do, when you do, that you do, how you do, with whom and with what you do apart from the minorest ever fact that its me, im just another me, and youre just another me, not another me as in my me, another me as in the me, a thing that mes, a class of mes, all the things that me, and if only we were all as keen as blowflies are on headbutting windows.